Worked myself into a nice hypo state with the party prep. It's time for me to mellow the fuck out. Otherwise I will likely snap someone's head right off his or her body. For instance, Manny asking "What else should I get while I'm out getting balloons and ice?" and I yelled at him about how we don't have food for the grownups. There was no reason to rip him a new one, no reason at all. "STOP STRESSING!" I shrieked. Eliz started talking to me at that moment. "WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME! STOP IT!" I said wildly.
Ahem.
After he left I realized that we had pizza. Freaked! Out! Gaaah. Embarrassing. I know these things will get better but it's not pretty to see it so clearly.
So I'm sitting here with my comforting internet connection, bringing myself down if at all possible. Everything is ready.
When I look back at the last year or two I realize that I was in this state of mind for much of the time. Sophie's hearing aid, moving all of our belongings, the writer's conference, Manny's depression. I haven't been a pleasant person at all. Sorry. I've tried.
Hope the party was a huge success! :) Hard to believe we both have two little girls who are ages 6 and 9 now, isn't it? Wow.
Posted by: Bobbi | February 04, 2006 at 06:16 PM
Considering all you are coping with I think you are marvelously pleasant, but you know eleanor roosevelt used to say "if you can't say anything nice, sit next to me."
Posted by: Bunni | February 04, 2006 at 07:19 PM
Bunni - wasn't that Alice Roosevelet Longfellow (Teddy's daughter) who used to say that?
Posted by: mml | February 04, 2006 at 07:47 PM