Spanglemonkey

Still Works

I slept and slept. And then slept some more. I feel a lot better about things this morning. My body hurts less, and I can tackle what I need to do. It's going to be a busy day. And wow, a three-day weekend! Woo hoo!

Omg that scared me. A guy is measuring the house for the house sale, and he just walked right into my backyard and was at the back door, right where I'm sitting. My heart! Adrenal system is go!

Jeez louise

Wow, man, 16-year-olds are rough. I thought it would happen eventually but it seems to have happened directly after her 16th birthday, the teenager thing. OMG. I have been a punching bag for two nights, until she had to go to manny's house.

My therapist is all, "That's ridiculous. You have to stand up for yourself. Don't allow that kind of behavior." Which is advice I like.

Feeling pretty good today. I have a social day lined up, which is how I like my Sundays. Ep will pick me up at 11:30 for lunch, and then I have a therapy appointment, followed by a date. A second date. Woo woo! It's sort of a date, anyway. Someone I"ve known at church for a long time.

The house is very clean from yesterday's whirlwind of cleaning. I'm paying the price in pain in my joints, but it looks great and it's nice not to have billowing clouds of cat fur everywhere.

Woops, gotta go pick up Sophie from her friend's house. She'll be all tired from her overnight.

Losing my Mind, Slightly

Sorry, i've been keeping you in suspense. I think I'm depressed because Ijust can't keep up with anything like reading, writing, or doing anything but sleeping. And working, of course. Anyway.

The doctor said I have severe arthritis, which isn't new information, but I also have a tight spot between my kneecap and the bone underneath which is causing a lot of stress in the bone. He ordered up some more physical therapy before we have to perform surgery again. I feel like I have a reprieve. I had really gone down the rabbit hole thinking how I would lose my job for having surgery and I would have another long recovery and etc etc.

Dang It

Getting the results from the MRI this morning. I'm quite apprehensive. I keep thinking that I'll lose my job if I have to have surgery, and it's stressing me out completely. I suppose I could go without the surgery, and that would solve that problem. But I don't know if it'll be a pre-existing condition with the next contract and its insurance. It's a total quandary.

I'm also taking prednisone and I'm truly cranky with the kids. I mean, they make such a mess and they never clean when I ask them to.

No Fun

I'm so glad it's Saturday. Yesterday at work I was in so much pain. I felt like crying! I took 5 of the industrial-sized advils during the day and it didn't really help. I came home and had an oxy and it was just grand. Now I'm kind of hungover from it, though. And I can't have any coffee until I get my blood test at 9. Argh.

Today, though, I will touch base with three of my best friends, and tomorrow is mother's day, so I think the weekend will reinvigorate me.

It was kind of amazing how many different kinds of pain I felt, particularly when I was walking in to work and hadn't had any advil yet. There was a stinging in my ankles, aches and sharp pains and throbbing. The gamut.

Damn

Left knee is now going the same way, says the surgeon. And now I'm on methotraxate, says the rheumatologist.

V. depressed.

What Goes On in Those Joints

Good Tuesday. Gosh I'm neglecting the ol' blog. Life has changed quite a bit from the days when I would blog numerous times a day. Now I have my nose to the grindstone and can't see anything but grindstone, naturally.

Seeing two doctors on Wednsday, my surgeon and the rheumatologist. My other knee, the non-surgical knee, sort of ripped underneath the kneecap as I was bending over the other day. Oh. um. So I made the appointment at Ms Jane's insistence. I had pretty much decided I woudlnt' seek medical attention for it, because then maybe ot would just GO AWAY but alas no. Then the rheumatologist, because my hands are stgarting to hurt again now that I'm not taking as much medication for pain. Being in this body is hard work.

The Itch, Out! Out!

OMG, Friday at last. I have had this itchy thing going on all over my body, but especially where my hair hits my face and neck and in my arms and chest. So I called my pdoc and he said that nothing he was giving me would cause that reaction. Last night I had two benedryl and went to bed, and today I think I'm a little better, though it's hard to tell because I'm really still asleep.

It'll be great to have a weekend. Yay. Next week I scheduled a trip to the surgeon and the rheumatologist in the same day. Oh boy.

A Place of Light

The house is beautifully clean this morning, since I worked hard on it yesterday, and it's putting me in a really good mood. I'm making eggs and then I'll go to church, and then this afternoon I'm going to hang out with Ep and see what's up in Redwood CIty life.

I need to go buy a new pot, because Sophie has attempted cooking projects in two of my pots and left a completely impenetrable burned mass on the bottom of each one. Grr.