I feel so much better today. I really like being home and getting 12 hours of sleep. Today I'm going to try walking with my new walking sticks. The neurologist told me that my brain doesn't know where my feet are because of the neuropathy, so sticks in my hands can really help. I'll look funny but who the fuck cares, anyway?
The neuropathy should disappear after 12-18 months, if I stop Arava, which I have. I am not waiting for my rheumy to get back to me about it. I just want off what's hurting me.
Lately it seems like the pills are hurting me more than helping me. But I also really need the medicaiton I'm on. Just figuring out what's a symptom and what's a side-effect is really hard.