Feeling a bit more equanimity today after yesterday's dustup over the car. I'm more philosophical about it today. It's not my fault, I have a stupid car, etc. It's really remarkable how much that car costs me. And how I can't really get a different car until my student loan comes. And even then... how do I get rid of my old one? And negotiate a new one? I have no idea. I need a buddy who has done it before. I wouldn't mind an old Camry or something.
Today the elephant in my room is the financial meeting I"m going to with Manny and the financial planner. It's up in San Mat and then depending on how long the meeting is I'll head back to Deadwood. It might go until 10 or probably more like 11. Then I'll try to meet Ep for coffee or lunch. At some point I need to reclaim my car from the repair place.
I wonder what the financial woman will say? I'm not optimistic.
Been doing mindfulness exercises every now and then to calm myself. I ate a packet of raspberries "in the moment," and it really helped to quiet my nerves. Of course soon after that I took an Ativan and fell asleep in front of the TV at 8:00, but that's a different story.
I hope things go your way, my friend.
Take care.
Posted by: Melissa | November 03, 2009 at 11:51 AM