One way to feel a lot of despair really fast is to read about how insurance companies treat people with bipolar disorder. Words like "automatic decline" are common. I have insurance for now, and probably will when Manny gets his new job (knock on wood) but for how much longer? How will I deal with it when we're divorced? I'm getting all worked up but it's not anything that is affecting me right now, so I need to mellow out. I'll deal with it as it comes.