Jonesing

Since I've decided to quit Ativan within the next two weeks, and since I've already gone this long without taking any medication at all today since I woke up late, I've decided to see what happens if I don't take just the Ativan this morning. I'm tired of being addicted to something that possibly makes me something of a zombie, so I just have to go through the withdrawal. It makes me crawly and jonesy to miss the Ativan, this i know, but I'm going to just do it. And yes, pdoc sanctioned it.

Should make for some obsessive clock-watching until noon when I can have my next one. I'm only quitting the first thing in the morning one.

I'm waiting for Eliz to call and tell me what's up during the day, because it's her birthday and she said she wanted me along for whatever was happening. I told her she has to invite me because otherwise I won't know what's going on. Will she remember? Does she grok the politics of the situation? I suppose I'll call in a little while and invite myself along instead.

I wonder if it'll be as hot today? It got up to the hundreds yesterday.

Time to work a bit more on the bp diaries. Much work to be done there.