Downward

I watched the first half of the superbowl and it was vaguely entertaining. I should be doing schoolwork, which is what I'll do when Sophie gets picked up by Manny.

I'm feeling rather bad at the moment. Won't inflict it upon you except to describe some corner of it. Feeling like I'm in a deadend of my life, though I know I'm doing a lot for the future. I just always thought I'd have my husband forever. Going through some hard heart moments today. Feeling as though I won't do well in school. Loserville.

Have to tell myself it won't be like this forever. Someday I'll be with someone else, more than likely. Can't quite imagine it, but it might just happen. Also with school, I'm going to do my best. It will be okay it will it will. Sorry for the bummer post. Blame it on the donuts, I do.

Comments

[Ms. Jane]

It's hard to keep in mind that your feelings/thoughts are temporary. Especially when they feel so crappy and real at the moment.

I think a lot of it has to do with the time of year. It's our first quartile depression. I've got the existential bummertude too, like my life is empty and meaningless and I'll end up alone.

Which I know isn't true, it just feels that way right now, you know?

[Jo]

I feel your pain, dude. Yeah, it is a gray time of year, isn't it? You're my model of good living alone-ness, though. You're really good at it, though of course there are those moments...

[Ms. Jane]

Truly most of the time I just love it.

BTW, Himself found me an xlnt "new" car that I picked up on Saturday. 2001 Accord with less than 27K miles for $9500. I'm mobile!

[Jo]

Wow, excellent! I can't wait to see it! What color? White?

[Ms. Jane]

Can you believe that it ISN'T white?!?! It's silver. And it's a sedan, not a hatchback! I feel really weird not having a white hatchback anymore...

[Jo]

Yay! Silver! Coolio.