Spanglemonkey

Better

Feeling a bit more myself today. I think the med change is taking effect, and also I didn't take an oxy to sleep last night. I woke up feeling less drugged and more alert. I hope I can sustain this non-depressed self for the day. Yay!

Also one of the positions I applied for asked for my resume and cover letter, so I'm kind of excited at the possibilities. It's a contract position, though, so it's less of a sure thing. But it offers benefits. So that's a good thing.

Sad

I feel like I've fallen down a big hole. My identity is disappearing and I'm not sure where it went. And on top of that my father and I went to see the Iron Lady and it was such a sad movie! OMG.

So I'm just feeling melancholy.

A Hole

Just had a nap like I fell down a hole. I get tired really easily and this morning I had two appointments, one at the physical therapist and one with my pdoc, whom I like very much. He upped everything that will make me feel better, so I'm optimistic that I'll be out of my current funk pretty soon.

I've been pretty bummed, truth be told. It was hard to come off all my medication and then get my knee replaced and go through withdrawal on top of pain like I haven't felt before, in the hospital.

A Bit Discomfited

Kinda grumpy today, and tired of my life of watching TV. My dad and I are both grousing around a bit, though we just got up 15 minutes ago. I think I'll go to church just to get out of his hair for a little bit. Later on we'll watch the 49ers game.

Yesterday I had a lot of visitors which was nice. Ms Jane came over and we ate cupcakes and watched Andy Cohen, and then Kat came by and we all had a conversation about work. In the morning we had breakfast with S. and it was really nice to get out and about and see her.